my final year prom

one week prior, not, correction, one month before hand...everyone has been busy preparing what they want to wear for prom, to what kind of hair that would suit them and to the intricate details on how they want their make up done...in the midst of the hustle and bustle of the big preparation...tonight has finally arrived and while getting ready for the big night...a whole 4 years of memories just flash before me...with all the ups and downs..on all the bumps along the road that i had to endure...it was quite a ride down..and i as jog down memory lane..(not being sentimental here) i think of the countless fights and reconcillation i had with a certain friend, the number of hours i put into studying...which slowly was exchanged with late night supper and hang outs ..haha..and the outings we had..the inside jokes we shared...the trouble we got into...the many many great times with my coursemates and housemates ....i wouldn trade any of those moments for anything...for i have now learn to cherrish the good times and learn from the bad times...

my final year was a train wreck...with the ammount of pressure in my course coupled with some unhappy incidence made me very strong emotionally and i m very sure that if i can go through this i am capable of sustaining from anything that comes to me in the future..*cheh*...hahaha

fnally...for those who stood by me through thick and thin...thank you from the bottom of my heart
for those who helped me get up when i was feeling so low,tak kisah u scolded me kah, or encouraged me...i couldn have done it without you guys
for those who wrote me hate mails...who purposely hurt me just for your personal satisfaction...i dont have much to say...someone else would take care of you for me aite..haha

and some personal thank yous'..
1) my mum ....was such a good timing to have her around in kl when i got to know i failed my practical...world fell apart for one moment but joined back together when she hugged me.
2) dad who made fun of other ppl to make me laugh..hahahaha
3) brothers....hmm....i guess they made me grow up in their own way:p
4) my dear dear bro....who was so supportive and encouraging when i was feeling so low..i shall never never forget how you helped me when i called u up..:) i owe you big big time:)
5) my bestie!!!thanks for pouring cold water on me...a true wake up call...and to pull me away from making huge mistakes...:p

gosh...another few months and its the begining of my new chapter in life...im so excited!

my last one month of uni life

gosh there is so many thing i want to do before i graduate and me n jiajie have been writing down a list of to-do list ...and gosh there is just so little time with the thesis and the case reports and the clinics and ...OMGOSH!!....wish i had 25 hours a day!....

NEVERTHELESS....i have already did some of the stuff in my to-do list...which was

1) go to mont kiara and see what all the fuss is about
- to be honest, was nothing to shout about ...went to this german restaurant just beside haagen daaz and to be honest...food was so-so..edible la..(or maybe i just dont like german food)..environment was not too bad...apart from an older crowd jamming that area, i would say tat's a perfect place for a date...but not a ladies hang out place...but tat is just plainly my opinion lah..:)

2) went clubbing secara beramai-ramai
- went to..guess where...yes...MOS...AGAIN....sigh...me n jiajie confronted our bad bad experience there...(hint:jalan bangsar) and decided to join the pharmacy gang for a good night out...and i must say i underestimated them...during the day they were this group of studious kids..and at night boy were they hawt!...we had the time of our lives!!! serious the best clubbing i ever had...and no it was not because some random guy asked for my number...but the fact that everything seemed to be out of my system...so gosh i danced for 3 hours...and we even went on the stage! imagines tat!!!!hahahaha....we totally rocked ladies night tat night...despite the fact tat i nearly dozed off during my hospital posting the next day and that i came back with a transient hearing prob...it was god damn worth it!!!! count me in for another round anytime

3) finally went for a movie after AGES
alice in wonderland proved to be a stage for my very "talented" buddies to show their acting and imitating skills.....jiajie was fabulous as the red queen...and heng...taking the faminin white queen part...and ben as stayne...LMAO...movie was so-so...but the company was fabulous...the dirty jokes, the mean remarks...the silly jokes...gosh this is going to be something i would definitely miss when i graduate...

things that i have yet to do:

1) go for sky track in shah alam.
2) skydiving
3) go for a city tour in all the nice scenic places in kl
4) the library at the curve
5) still planning....hahaha

okays..i know thesis and graduating is my main priority...but girls just wanna have fun:)

p/s: this post is also a shout out to someone who said my post is also depressing...im not a depressed soul ...bt i m intermittently emotional...hahaha:p

what to do when u noe wat

finally i had some time to write this up..and its not because i waited till now to get over last year's issue..its just i didnt think it was important to write it down...but then again..in the event i get my heart crushed again...i would keep this in mind,smile and move gracefully on, instead of tumbling n falling all over..:)

1) block off all means of contact including tweeter, facebook msn or anything else....once u decided there is no turning back its good to do so to avoid writting things u would regret

2) do not post on your fb shout outs regarding this issues...the whole world is not even slightly interested in knowing if u are trying kononya to be strong..

3) dont have to purposely throw/delete or do anything stupid like going to memorable places again for old times sake...because the more u make this break up seem important and u start making rituals...it becomes an important part of your life from then on...and that slowly eats u up...painfully

4) reduce talkin to random friends about it...the more your talk about it the more it lingers on your mind and that is not good

5)block his friends

6) do not start dating that soon after...past would be confused with present and you would think everyone is him..ahhahaha

7)ok i cnt think of anything else...haha...

hmm its been fun doing this...now i have better things to do....ciao

for the broken hearted

lately i realise i have started to become a relationship adviser to some of my close friends...and when i take a step back and look at it...its such a laugh..of all people, me? giving love advises? someone has to come n slap some senses into me...i should not even be listening let alone give advises...gosh i m so worried i would just ruin people's relationships...:(

im not spiteful..bt i seem to be mixing up my past relationship with my friends' current situation..and this is not only making me reminise my past, its just plain wrong to assume tat what my friends go through is similar to what i went through...

in truth, its not even slightly the same.

what i went through was a 10 month lie...what others went through were real emotions..a relationship that actually mattered to them...and for me to judge that based on what i experience is in fact a real joke.

so...to my friends who recently had your hearts broken:

i suck at relationships..i really do..or maybe i just have not found the right one..(so they tell me)
and what u guys went through was monumental...was an unforgetable experience that just took a wrong turn..dont blame yourselves that this is happening..just be thankful that you were once happy.

im in no place to judge or to give advises to your conditions..and i feel so helpless coz i feel that its like dejavu but yet its totally different...

what i can offer u guys is a listener...i cnt promise tat i would not get emotional after listening, but i can promise that you would have someone by you at these hard times..

of course i dont wish that things would end...but then if it does..then im pretty sure God decided that that person isn't fit enough to be your soulmate and you guys should just move on.

stay happy my friends...heart breaks are not the end of the world if you can learn from it.

xoxo
Me

mad sexy cool

baby, oh yeah
baby, oh yeah

You don't ever bring no drama to the game
and my drama don't be scaring you away
you dont ever talk to much
exactly just enough
you know how and when and where and what to say

it aint like i gotta tell you your so fine (your so fine)
you been gettin complements since you was nine (damn)
its like your perfect (...)
a diamond in the rough
I knows you give me nothin else but love (love)

You are such a mad sexy cool girl
how does someone turn into you girl
how do you explain
what you do
what you say
how you be
how you play
how you love
everyday
how your constantly the same
how you give
never hate
and you dont ever change
be consistantly that way
your a mad sexy cool girl, and i love you that way
baby, oohhhhh


you be ruling with a certain shade of cool (shade of cool)
i dont know no body half as fresh as you
i be checkin your behaviour
oh baby you got so much flavour
sometimes i wanna call you juicy fruit (juicy)

it aint like i gotta tell you your a star (your a star)
you be shining and be sparkling in the dark
girl you so perfect (...)
you my dimond in the rough
i know you give me nothin else but love


You are such a mad sexy cool girl
how does someone turn into you girl
how do you explain
what you do
what you say
how you be
how you play
how you love
everyday
how your constantly the same
how you give
never hate
and you dont ever change
be consistantly that way
your a mad sexy cool girl, and i love you the same

(baby) how does someone
so beautiful
so approachable
none so adourable
(baby) guess your my kinda wonderful
my dream come true

You are such a mad sexy cool girl (sexy cool girl)
how does someone turn into you girl (into you girl)
how do you explain
what you do
what you say
how you be
how you play
how you love
everyday
how your constantly the same
how you give
never hate
and you dont ever change
be consistantly that way
your a mad sexy cool girl

You are such a mad sexy cool girl (ohh baby yes you are)
how does someone turn into you girl (turn into you)
how do you explain
what you do
what you say
how you be
how you play (ooohh)
how you love
everyday
how your constantly the same
how you give
never hate
and you dont ever change (never change)
be consistantly that way
your a mad sexy cool girl
(Your a mad sexy cool girl)

baby *fade out*
how does someone turn into you girl
how do you explain
what you do
how you be
how you play
how you love
everyday
how your constantly the same